So much to talk about today!
To start off, I wanna share with you my new favorite salad enhancer….Kelp Noodles! Made by Sea Tangle Noodle Company, these little guys are full of alkalizing vitamins and minerals! Sea vegetables are touted for having iron, iodine (so you can skip the corn-infested iodized salt! yes, iodized salt really does contain corn, dextrose any0ne?), and Vitamin C! I’ve always been a big nori fan, but thanks to these little guys I’m now wayy into kelp as well! They are great on salads and can also be used in stir frys and other asian-infused dishes. My personal favorite way to eat them is in this recipe: http://butwhatshouldieat.blogspot.com/2011/05/kelp-noodles.html
A few weeks ago, I discovered from my natropath that I have a parasite, an over abundance of H. Pylori (ulcer causing) bacteria in my gut, and that my recent weight gain is most likely due to cortisol from stress. What’s funny is that all my stress comes from trying so hard to eat well and still feeling crappy all the time (thank you, mr. parasite). And even though I’m on meds and an even more restrictive diet for that now, I haven’t felt much better yet. Which of course, stresses me out. It’s really hard to be optimistic and happy when your stomach feels like its full of knives!
This morning I had every intention of going to Bikram Yoga at 6 am, but of course, my stomachache kept me up all night and I just couldn’t swallow getting up so dang early. But upon waking, I was automatically stressed that I a) missed out on a workout and b) that my stomach STILL hurt. I didn’t want to feel that way all day so I decided to try something new: yoga on my own. Sure, I’ve done a few sun salutations here and there at home, but I’ve never had a full out yoga sesh anywhere outside a classroom. Inspired by a photo of my health and wellness idol, holistic nutritionist Kimberly Snyder, practicing yoga on her balcony, I lugged an old beach towel and some other yoga props out to my own balcony (which I haven’t even used since I moved in) for a little morning de-stressing.
I usually get really restless when doing yoga, wondering when it’s going to be over, so today I made it a point to focus on each pose and nothing else, and just allow myself to be in the moment and be still. And guess what? I ended up doing yoga for an hour! On my own! Sure, I had a few moments of speedy restlessness, but overall, I think I did pretty well! And the relaxation I felt after was unlike anything I’d experienced before. Just complete calm. It was crazy. I’m hoping I’ll be able to make this a more regular occurance. Ideally, I’d love to enroll in a yoga class, but impromptu balcony yoga is free!
The calm I felt this morning brings me to my next train of thought. I recently finished reading Russell Simmons’ book “Super Rich” and I totally loved it. One of the ideas he stressed in the book was getting fulfillment from working. Basically, if you aren’t doing something that goes with your values and beliefs, you aren’t going to find much fulfillment or purpose in that. I’ve been really feeling that lately with my job. So i’ve been trying to figure out why, since I get to help people find products that they can eat with certain allergies, which totally parellels everything I’m passionate about. However, I think my problem here is I really don’t believe in most of the stuff I’m selling. It’s all still processed junk , albiet wheat and usually dairy-free processed junk. But there is hardly anything in the store that I’d be willing to put in my body. And I’m passionate about helping other people get healthy, so how am I helping anyone by suggesting that they buy cupcakes and cereal? I’m only contributing to the Standard American Diet, when what I really want to do is see it out the door.
I’ve really noticed it lately, today especially after my morning of yoga. I felt so calm, energized and happy this morning, but a few hours into my shift and I’m bored, cranky and easily annoyed. I’m trying so hard to keep my thoughts positive, but I think what it comes down to is cognitive dissonance. I’m not acting in accordance with my beliefs and it throws me off.
I don’t know what my next move will be, all I can do is hope and pray that it comes soon! Because this lack of fulfillment seems to be slowing my overall healing process. Wish me luck! Thanks for reading